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Blessed Struggles

I believe that there is a lesson in every incident that occurs in our lives.  Whether those incidents are uplifting, frightening, saddening, maddening, or any other “-ing” word you can mention, there is a lesson to be learned.  Today my struggles are saddening and maddening.  My flesh tells me one thing.  My God tells me another.

My go-to-reaction is to listen and behave as the screaming flesh would have me to do.  That has been my M.O. for 43 years.  I am 44.  As overwhelming as those screeching voices of the flesh are, I am struggling as hard as I can to obey the teachings of God.  My struggles, today, are regarding a dream that included an old friendship (and in this dream, this friend behaved as she always had) and a reality based situation that stems from years of abuse, lies, instability, insecurity, and hurt. 

God has physically delivered me from my abusive past.  The emotional part of that is feeling almost too broken to be mended at this moment.  A lifetime of abuse has stained my heart.  And while I have opened that heart to allow God to come in, I haven’t willingly kicked those not paying rent out of my heart, or my head.  I am proudly exposing my struggles, not because that’s where I want to live, but it’s because I know that where my struggles are, there my God is ready to help me with everything I need. 

“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”  2 Corinthians 12:9

I could lash out at those who were supposed to love me, keep me safe, and help me feel secure.  I could speak the words that my flesh is familiar with.  I will not.  I will forgive as God has forgiven me.  As I go through this troubled time in the day, I know that forgiveness is my ticket into a lighter, happier, and calmer life.  I continually speak “I forgive them.”  I may not even mean it now, but I will say it until I do. 

Peter asked Jesus how many times he should forgive those who have wronged him.

  “Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you seven times, but seventy times seven.”  Matthew 18:22

I will follow where Jesus leads me.  He says “seventy times seven.”  So, seventy times seven it is.  I know that my struggles are hard, tiring, and they weaken me so much.  However, I know that I am blessed because in my darkness, Jesus Christ is my light, my strength, and my refuge.  I will obey him and love and forgive others as He has loved (always) and forgiven me (over and over and over). 

My struggles are blessed because my Father has not forsaken me, nor will He ever.

“For the LORD loves the just and will not forsake his faithful ones. Wrongdoers will be completely destroyed; the offspring of the wicked will perish.”  Psalm 37:28

Thank you, Father, for my struggles as they allow me to focus on You.  How blessed I am. 

What struggles are you facing today?  Who God is today, He was yesterday, and He will be tomorrow.  He will never forsake you.  Blessed are we who know Jesus Christ and struggle because we know that our Light will guide us and keep us. 

“He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.”  Psalm 91:4

Glory be to God Almighty!

 

 
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Posted by on March 26, 2013 in Uncategorized

 

If I Died Today…

This is morbid, but it’s been on my mind with the death of my good friend this past Sunday.  If I died today, this is what I would want my obituary to read:

Dawn Mychelle Pringle, 44, died February 28, 2013. Memorial services will be at 7 p.m. Monday, March 4, 2013 at Memorial Park Funeral Home and Cemetery, 6969 I-40 East.

Dawn was born to David Lee Davis and Beverly Ann Gurney on August 8, 1968.  Dawn attended Amarillo schools and graduated from Palo Duro High School in 1986.  She later attended Amarillo College and West Texas A&M University where she received her Masters Degree in Professional Counseling. 

Dawn worked at the Pavilion at Northwest Texas Healthcare System as a Licensed Professional Counselor.  She loved her work and always wanted to help just one person.  She also opened her private practice in December of 2012.  Dawn’s passion was always about helping others in need. 

Dawn married her husband, John, in January of 1992, and they had two daughters.  She loved her daughters with all of her heart, and she only wanted them to be happy and loving toward others.  

Dawn became a born again Christian through baptism in 2011.  Her best friend, Angela, loved Dawn back to God in the gentlest of ways.  Dawn understood that God loved her, and she loved Him.  Dawn tried everyday to show God to others through her behaviors and words.  Whenever asked how she was doing, Dawn would answer, “I’m blessed, thank you!”  Dawn wanted you to know that she was beyond blessed only by the Grace and Mercy of God.

Dawn was preceded in death by her grandfather, James Earl Young, her grandmother Margaret Eileen Brewer, her mother-in-law and her father-in-law Loretta and Gordon Pringle, and her father David Lee Davis. 

Survivors include her husband John, her daughter Erin Nicole Holland and husband Mitchel, her daughter Hayley Danielle Pringle, her grandson Hunter Reed Holland, her best friend Angela Lee McMichael, her mother Beverly Gurney, her brother Darren Davis, and her niece, Brooklyn Arceneaux.  Special mention is to be given to Sharon and Terry Hargrave, Robyn Brammer, Lisa Boni, and all of Dawn’s co-workers at the Pavilion.

In lieu of flowers, donations may be made to the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation or The Bridge – Children’s Advocacy Center in Amarillo.

“Be blessed and be a blessing.”

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It would read something like that.  I can’t help but think about my own mortality with the sudden death of my friend on Sunday and the death of a guy I went to school with.  He was found dead this past Wednesday morning.  I want my life to be one of showing God’s love and giving Him all the Glory!  I will continue to do my best in that area. 

This is not a “I want to die” post.  This is a “God is so very good” post.  Everything good and perfect I have in my life, ever had in my life, is all from God.  I look forward to the day I get to go home to Him.  I am pretty sure, though, that He has more for me to do, yet.  Praise God for all you have in bad and good times.  Praise His name when you feel you have nothing.  Depend on Him for all things in your life.  He will not deprive you of what you need.  That’s His promise.  To God be all the glory!! 

 
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Posted by on March 1, 2013 in Uncategorized

 
 
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