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Oh, it IS Jesus!

Ok, so I was on a particular social network just a bit ago listening to this guy speak.  LOVED what I heard!  Seriously, what a great story teller this guy is.  Anywho, he mistakenly saw a profile picture as a woman in a dress.  The icons are really small, so it was hard to tell in all honesty.  I thought it was a woman in a big skirt, also.  The person who has that picture told him, “It’s Jesus, man.”  The guy speaking looked closer, and he stated, “Oh, it is Jesus!”  This one phrase made me decide to write this.  Why?  Because.  Because how many times do we see something, or someone, and not realize that it really is Jesus, so to speak?  A blessing.

I’m not talking about seeing some complete stereotype of what Jesus looks like.  I’m talking about the “smaller” things or events that we see on a daily basis.  I am talking about the sun.  The breeze blowing across your skin.  The delicious taste of that first cup of coffee or that tiny morsel of your favorite food.  The wispy clouds floating past the moon on any given night.  The person who may seem totally insignificant in your life until by some unexpected occurrence they aren’t.

We often take these things and people for granted for one reason or another.  We live in a busy world where we feel the need to hurry and get as much as done in the fastest amount of time possible.  Why?  What is so important that we forget to notice the little things we have been graciously given?  I am reading a book, and have been for a while because I have a hard time with comprehension sometimes, that has kicked me right in the rear.  The last chapter I read has really done me in.  It’s a good “done me in” thing, though.  The whole thing is about being able to practice thanksgiving and just living in the “where you are now” time and place.  I know that I had forgotten, or perhaps had never really know, how to do that.  I do my best on a daily basis to pay closer attention, though.  I fail a lot of the time.  I am okay with that and know that it is up to me to make it better.  I have to work harder at it.  I’m not against hard work and think that I perform better when the work is harder.

I think seeing Jesus, or blessings, or the opportunity to give thanks in everything could scare some folks.  Some folks are just so comfortable in living in the complaint department of life.  I’ve visited that department myself.  Complaining about not enough time to get this or that done when I’m just sitting around complaining about it.  Complaining about the amount of my health insurance deductible when there are others who are absolutely unable to get health insurance.  Complaining about my cluttered house when there are those who have no home to complain about.  Ugh…yes, I do this.  It’s gross.  Vile, even.  What would my life be like if I solely focused on just being thankful?  I think it would allow me to be more giving.  It would allow me to be more loving and kind.  It would definitely allow for me to be more grateful and less judgmental.  I am struggling to see the downside to this thanksgiving stuff.

Being able to hear a crying child can get irritating.  Seeing laundry that needs to be folded and put away is frustrating.  Having to put air in my tire because it went completely flat had me feeling dread.  But the gifts and provision by only Jesus are there.  I can hear!  I can see!  I have transportation!  Who am I to complain about things I have been blessed with?  What the heck?!  It’s mind-boggling if you really think about it.  Why do we complain so much?  Why are we so focused on seeing a lady in a dress or big skirt when really it IS Jesus?  What is it going to take to get us to slow down, breathe, focus on what we really do have?  Hm?

I have gotten a lot better about being thankful, but I can hardly stand myself at other times when I have allowed my humanness to take over.  It takes work, and I know that it is absolutely worth it to be grateful for every little thing.  It lifts a burden.  We are prisoners of ourselves, and we are freed from that when we practice thanksgiving.  Don’t you want to be free?  If so, what are you willing to sacrifice to make that freedom happen?  Pride?  Fear?  Selfishness?  Lay them down.  Slow down, take a step back, and just breathe.  Look for Jesus in the picture.

 
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Posted by on January 3, 2016 in Uncategorized

 

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So much to learn

Many people in my life have left me.  That started when I was eight years old, and my dad had to leave the house.  He was not the last, that’s for sure.  I have learned that people leave, and that is just a part of life.  It is a sucky part of life.  I have had best friends leave me which have hurt most of all.  I currently fight the fear of doing something to make someone leave again.  I have been promised over and over…and over that I will not be left.  I DO believe the love of this person for me.  I DO believe the commitment this person has with me.  I DO believe the friendship this person has with me.  I DO need to unlearn those familiar behaviors of others who have left.  I need to give it all to God, and let Him put me in the perfect place with those in my life.  I would absolutely have no heart left if particular individuals left me.  That will not happen due to blatant promises.  Promises from a Godly heart I so believe.  I get scared sometimes.  I have asked for patience in trying to be what I need to be to not blow this thing on my end.  God, I need this fear to end.  With my face to the ground I beg for the power to release this fear.  Doubt, lack of trust, and so many other crappy things lead to dissipation of relationships.  That is NOT where I want to live.  I want to live in the comfort of knowing that I am loved, cared about, and treasured as a good person with a good heart.  That is not up to me, totally.  I can do nothing but be who I am.  I am grateful I have people in my life who will be patient with me, who love me so much, that after my continuing education, they will still be around.  Thank you, Father, for those people.  Help me to not hurt others by the way others have hurt me.  I refuse to walk away from what is so very good.  I have so much to learn.  I yearn for this education. 

 
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Posted by on June 24, 2012 in Uncategorized

 

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